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[Feb. 13th, 2007|10:21 pm] |
i know i say this everytime i update,
and goddamn it im gonna say it again!
I DONT KNOW WHY I EVEN BOTHER WITH THIS THING!
anyways.
time is moving by so fast. which means i'll be 30 before i know it.
scarrryyyyyy =[
theres so much i want to do, so much i want to get done.
even though i complain sometimes about being so busy,
i love it and sitting around waiting for things to happen, is NOT me.
i do wish school would hurry up though.
nothing new about that. |
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[Feb. 7th, 2007|09:54 pm] |
even though i know people dont read this L to the J,
it might make me feel better to just type some stuff out.
after everything working out and feeling like nothing goes wrong,
nothing really does.
stupid little stuff just makes me upset. really upset.
and honestly, most of it isnt new, just reacurring.
which i hate so much.
i've lost alot of people.
and everyday, even if they're a good friend of mine,
i feel like i lose a little of them too.
everyday when i walk out of the door knowing i could possibly lose someone forever, REALLY scares me.
all will be good, eventually.
i just have to have hope, no matter how small.
just hope.
and remember that most of the things that happen now,
wont even matter 10 years from now.
hope
hope
hope
hope
hope. |
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[Jan. 28th, 2007|04:53 pm] |
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[Jan. 19th, 2007|09:35 pm] |
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its been so long since i've had such a good day.
so there's alot of POSITIVE things going on in my head.
first. in my last entry, i meant "out of sight FRIDAY nights"
hahaha i was a little intoxicated. my baddddd.
i havent been on the internet in forever.
dancing is my life. literally. and i love it.
theres no stopping for me. no sir-eeee!
sometimes i dont even mind if i cant hang out with certain people.
im doing so much better now!
but i do miss select persons, SELECT.
i love getting close to people.
and not being disappointed.
or let down. what a great feeling.
school is school. completely pointless.
and i dont think i could meet more retarded people in my life.
i cant wait until im out of school.
lately, ali & i have been talking about alot.
how people act and friends and life and everything.
its good just to...talk. and listen.
since i've been dancing dawn to dusk,
i've lost alot of people. which is nothing new.
and i feel forgotten. and de-friended.
oh well. im getting over it.
and loving new people who are there for me.
lovelovelove. <3
the end. |
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[Dec. 30th, 2006|02:34 am] |
i love Natalie too!
out of sight Friend nights!
tropical Chex mix!
fergilicious!
one awesome girl who actually doesnt blow me off! |
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[Dec. 28th, 2006|01:56 am] |
i love me some Kayin Ecklin.
yes sirrrrrrr i do!
we've had so much fun doing the following:
-laughing our asses off at retardedassshit
-waiting for 6 hours for your brother to leave
-watched thomas' you tube videos (haha)
-trying to stay awake
-dancing in our own little worlds
-pictures! (lmao)
-hatinnn'
-bright green ipod!
-stevie wonder
-fergilicious!!!!!!!!!!!!
im out of things.
typing is fun.
try it some time.
PEACE=] |
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[Dec. 26th, 2006|06:16 pm] |
i miss people.
[CERTAIN people]
but it is a pretty sweet break from those OTHER people.
ha.
i want a boyfriend.
so i can finally have the chance to blow of YOU people.
but tis all good.
i cant fuckin wait til i drive!
i miss dancing.
in fact, i just got up and did a little turn.
(haha)
okay thats it.
i was bored.
LATUHHHHHHHHH! |
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[Dec. 24th, 2006|01:54 pm] |
everyday im convinced im bipolar.
it kind of sucks.
this has been the most non-christmas christmas EVER!
and ironically,
i hate just sitting around.
and not being able to see the people who make me happy.
KAKA & BRAD & ASHLEIGH <3
its weird how some people...click.
i loveee ittt.
i dont want school, i just want dance.
is it so hard to get EXACTLY what i want!?
ugh.
time to go.
the entire loud crazy philipino people i call "family" are arriving.
PEACE! |
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[Dec. 17th, 2006|09:47 pm] |
FUCK.
i only seem to update this stupid thing when im pissed.
but its like not anyone reads it.
so FUCK.
enjoy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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[Dec. 13th, 2006|09:40 pm] |
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REALLY REALLY REALLY do not understand how people can be so fucking dumb and just plain ignorant. and WHY they're like that!!!!! i mean i know i may come off as a huge bitch, but i KNOW im not. its almost sad because i know thats how most people see me and thats ALL they will ever see. i just happen to be very straight forward and OH MY FUCKING GOD- if i make a JOKE. but noooo oneeee knows me. no one really knows anyone. so why try to say who we are and who we arent. theres NO point. its just a complete waste of time. cant we all just be nice and appreciate the little things every once in a while!?
i guess not.
so much shit is going on that i just REALLY do not understand. also, i really dont know why people cant just get their own lives. instead of butting in on other peoples business and say shit that they dont even know about it. OH FUCKING WELL.
i know this is a complete waste of my time to even let this get to me, i just want this to be known- that is REALLY pisses me off. so SORRY if i come off as a fucking bitch. SORRY!!!!!!!!!!! |
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[Dec. 9th, 2006|11:58 am] |
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i dont know why i can never learn from the past.
maybe i just have hope for some people.
and of course i get let down, again and again.
hmm, OH WELL.
PS- i hate my ankle!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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[Nov. 27th, 2006|11:33 pm] |
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AAHHHHHHH!!!=]
about damn time something like this is happening.
i cant even describe how happy it makes me.
how excitedddd i am.
things ARE going to change, im not even kidding!
im so fucking stoked.
;alemaiejfaijaef
i LOVE dancing, THIS kind of dancing.
everyone is going to be blown away.
big thanks to ashleigh and brad =]
getttin' all in shape and shit and just worrkinnn' it
OH MY GOD.
i dont even care how busy its going to make me,
it'll be better to spend my time making this performance happen
rather then sitting around while my mind rots away.
not-even-fucking-kidding.
i havent been this happy/excited in FOREVER!
a;lemfaciefjalkefjA =]=]=] |
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[Nov. 25th, 2006|12:00 am] |
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| | i like my beat down low. | ] |
some things im looking forward to:
-being 18!!! nose/lip piercing and tattoo :]
-fucking DRIVING, going anywhere, when-the-fuck-ever i want!
-independence
-& people needing ME
-revenge, sweet sweet revenge
-my own cute little apartment
-getting passed this bad phase in my life
-the long trip to florida, just to stay with dallas(& benn) for a month-ish :]
-money makinnnnn' playa
-meeting someone who will stick with me for like, ever!
ya know ya know. |
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| peace FOOL! |
[Nov. 19th, 2006|09:16 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | smiles. | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | la-de-da! | ] |
no matter what mood im in, dance will always save me. big part to my fellow dancers too. i could be at an all time low (which i've come VERY close too lately) they bring me right back up, to the good ol' ANNNABELLLLLL! ;aldkfaje woo!
anyways.
im still lost as ever. and indicisive as a bitch.
I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DOOOOOO! wahh =(
mmmm.
still cant stand bullshit && bullshitters.
some of the thoughts in my head are kind of scaring me...
i almost feel like...i dont even know how to describe it.
but im pretty good at pretending to be happy and act like everything is fine. because it sooo isnt.
oh well.
OH! i want a boy. someone who wont waste my time, and make me feel like shit. just knowing i could actually count on someone..would me amazing.
that is all.
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[Nov. 13th, 2006|09:03 pm] |
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| [ | Current Mood |
| | board games. | ] |
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| | colorado kool-aid. | ] |
alot of things have opened my eyes, even the littlest things.
like friends.
and what people are willing to do for you.
and who reallyyyy cares.
for a minute there, i thought i was all alone.
im just...surprised.
it makes me insanely happy too =]
im usually apologizing for everything.
but not now.
things are just..working out.
karma. wake up calls. REALITY.
imperfections are beautiful.
no matter what happens,
how horrible or life changing,
you'll always learn something.
at least i have...
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[Nov. 12th, 2006|11:19 pm] |
i love my friends.
the ones who wont let me down.
NO MATTER WHAT.
things are going to change.
slowly but surely,
THEY ARE GOING TO CHANGE.
i miss dallas. so fucking much.
why does he have to be in florida? WHY.
he's the ONLY boy who would do anything for me.
i can't fucking waittt until he comes back.
mmmmmm i miss him.<3
this is enough for now.
goodnight, dearest LJ.
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[Nov. 10th, 2006|07:43 pm] |
I don't like what has happened.
I don't like how it happened.
I don't like how it makes me feel.
I don't like how i fall for the same shit.
I don't like getting fucked over, again.
I don't like holding back.
I hate not knowing.
I hate knowing.
I just can't believe it.
It's weird, how fast something can happen.
I don't like it one fucking bit.
It all just seems like...a really bad dream.
But theres nothing I can do now.
It happened.
I hate that the most. |
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[Nov. 7th, 2006|06:23 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
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| [ | Current Music |
| | terry poison. | ] |
myspace is gayyyyyyy and im a loserrrrrrr.
i hate days like today, where im just mad for no reason.
there are reasons i guess..
oh welll.
FOUR DAY WEEEEEEKENDD!!!!
wooo! thank god. i need a break badly.
i know everyone feels my pain.
my body is falling apart because i dance so-fucking-much.
it kind of sucks.
performances/rehersals and errrrthang is JUST getting started. gah.
oh well.
i want a boy.
but nothing seems to work.
because of thissss and because of thattttt.
FUCK THAT MAN!
oh well. =]
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[Nov. 3rd, 2006|05:31 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | cheerful | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | lil wayne SEXYSEXYSEXY! | ] |
im happyyyyy, and im not letting stupid shit bring me down.
things are good. this week was good.
but i am a little scared for report cards.
especially AP Psych =[
lately, alot of people have been asking me why i dont have a boyfriend. quite frankly, i really dont know. ha. there just hasnt been anyone that can handle me and my complications. OHH WELLL =]
informal soon. gsa is sooo slack! i love taking charge & yelling at people.
and the fact that there ARE people who dont mind that im a bitch. i could never stop loving them. |
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[Oct. 31st, 2006|10:27 am] |
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..something may be wrong with me because last night i didnt fall asleep til 1am and i woke up at 4:30am WIDE AWAKE. what the hell! so now im on here trying to occupy myself.
yesterday was an amazing awesome fabulous dayyyy =]
i love Trips to Las Vegas (if you know what i mean)
it makes me happy and carefreeee and everything is just way better.
i really dont know why.
but everyoneee has been saying i look different.
since sunday night at rehersal.
then monday in first block.
and even people at gsa! OMGGGZZZZ.
your all going crazy, because i dont know what your talking about.
thanks for noticing? ha.
informal soon. ehh.
im somewhat excited but not really.
its not that big of a concert so there isnt alot of stressing.
which is reallyyyyyyyyyyyyy gooood.
the only thing im REALLY looking forward to is dinner with the crew at Domo's yayayyyyyy!!! one of my favorite traditions =]
geeez i love gsa.
i love my friends.
i love dancing.
i love life.
and all the shit that goes with it =]
i love how were all just growing up.
and how some people seem to never grow up.
mannnnnnnn, i dont like A days.
i dont like AP psych. blehhhhhhhhhhhhh.
but.
i have a good feeling about today,
and everyeveryeveryeveryday from now on.
but im always wrong.
ha.
we'll see. |
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